there are several things to address on this subject, and i will try to make as much sense as i can.
1. love is the gift that keeps on giving…
i have a friend. someone i have known for a long time. and here comes the boomerang effect again… just when you least expect it, somebody will show back up in your life at the exact time you need to hear from them most. it’s so out of the blue that you can’t possibly have planned it. but it happens. sometimes loving a person when you’re really young will pay off for you YEARS later when you’ve loved and lost what seems like a million guys since then (including the guy that just showed up again. and to be clear, ABSOLUTELY CLEAR, he showed up in the BEST way possible…as a really amazing and true FRIEND.) and i guess the point i’m trying to make is that if any of you out there have the truly endearing gift of a friendship that never goes away, no matter what, then you will always believe that EVERY love, no matter how it ends or begins, no matter what pain it may cause you at the time, it has a PURPOSE. and one day, no matter what you may think now (if you happen to be going through a painful breakup of your own), that ONE DAY, that guy might just make your world a better place to exist in. and you will indeed, be so very happy, to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
2. love at first sight….
still not sure i believe in it. after all, i’ve thought i loved a lot of people until the blinders came off. but i was watching crappy reality television tonight, and the thought occurred to me that when i was younger i totally believed in love at first sight…and, well, now, not so much. in fact it kind of makes me laugh and feel sorry for people that still believe in it. now, have i just gotten jaded as i’ve gotten older, or have i gotten wiser??? feel free to weigh in with your own opinions…
3. the love that counts…
the love that counts is the one you give yourself. trust yourself. believe in yourself. take that risk. you’ll catch yourself if you fall (and if you don’t you no doubt have friends that will….which is another way to love yourself…surround yourself with good friends that want you to be happy and succeed!!!) but most of all, if you have to be selfish a little, be selfish. say no to going out if you’re not in the mood. sleep in, even if it means that one of a million things on your “to-do” list doesn’t get done today. go see that movie that nobody else will agree to go see with you… i promise, you’ll be happier than you realize when you find that nobody is whispering silly questions in your ear the whole time! let your boss down if you have to, if it means saving that tiny bit of sanity you have left at the end of the day. take a bubble bath. let your kids eat take-out or microwavable mac and cheese. read that book that’s been sitting on your night stand. splurge for a pedicure or a massage or even a babysitter…yes, we’re in a recession, but let’s not forget that if we are not happy, the people around us are not happy, and that DEFINITELY includes wives/husbands and children, for my domesticated friends out there!!!
and for me…i’m seeing one of my first real romances again…not sure where it’s going yet, we just had our first “date” tonight, but i have a feeling i’ll be hearing something back tomorrow. wish me luck! (and to all those who haven’t caught on yet, i auditioned for my first play in over two years tonight…i think it went well…but then again, i’d hate to fall in love at first sight and find out that there’s another ketchup situation on my hands!!!)
as always, i’ll keep you updated… =)
sleep well, sweet prince. =) (just a little paraphrased shakespeare to tie things up with…)
